-=Devil Hunter's Office=-

shit!

2006-02-03T14:47:00.000+08:00

something's wrong w/ my blog!!

FUCK!

summer rejects rejecting time.... duh.

2006-01-23T18:45:00.000+08:00

tomorrow will be SUMMER REJECTS's first acoustic band practice.. speaking of..

one day mel asked me if we could join in their school fair's battle of the bands this saturday which is January 28. and to tell you honestly... it's MY first time to join a band competition.. and I am really really nervous about it..

haha talk about publicity and stuff but we joined cause we want to have experience and to have fun LOL and to sight see all the beautiful girls in Saint Paul QC haha.. just kidding folks... you know.. I'm a man too you know! I go peepee standing up!! ahaha!! anyways.. hahaha I'll really go peepee standing up when I'm on stage because of so much tension and for being so nervous.. hahaha! LOL

haha and to think of it. our opponents would be from San beda, Immaculate heart and other high quality schools w/c we know (we refers to us summer rejects) that they KICK ASS HARD! dude! ahaha and yeah! mel's band will be our rivals as well haha.. good luck for both of us! NYAHAHAHA RAK OWN SUMMER REJECTS!!

so this ends my blog post.. wish us luck and pray for me too ><><

nervouse and tensed.. sonar sings.

ROCK ON! SUMMER REJECTS!!

Ice skating is very enjoyable... INDEED

2006-01-16T16:34:00.000+08:00

I've should posted this last saturday night.. but my net card is already used up.. so I had to buy right now.. :)

Well... It was the very best birthday celebration I've ever celebrated! hahaha. Talk about fun, food and leisure.. I've spend my time with my friends and watched over the Princess and the Prince as their loyal Dark Knight of the Shadows bla bla bla..

It was very tiring.. Me and Roy, Around 10:30am went to QPS power station to apply a VIP card there.. then we saw Aru hahaha... then I inquired bout the card.. LOL I haven't got one so I seized the chance while I have money.. hahaha.. Lucky it was my birthday last wednesday so I got their bonus of 200 worth of card value.. haha, Why? cause when it's YOUR birthday and you OWN a VIP card in QPS then 3 days BEFORE or AFTER your funeral I mean your birthday, you can claim your BONUS of 200 worth of card value.. Get IT???? if you just don't get it.. Eat shit..

Nuff said.. after applying my VIP card.. We OWNED the DMV machine and GFV.. LOL ahahah.. I'm so happy.. I leveled up in GF, but it took some of my DM skills down.

Anyway.. Then we trottled our way to our home town Mega.. hahaha.. and talk about my outfit.. I wore the same old Formal Attire hahaha.. XP I don't know what comes in to my mind.. when I wear some kinda out fit like that.. Weird ne?

I arrived there and saw some GC folks.. I felt hungry so me and Jet walked to the FOODCOURT.. hahahah i ate, and then we head back to TZ.. I saw daddy kei and mommy madi.. too bad my mommy Eshie's not there.. made me feel incomplete though, I miss her.. But hey! it's no use ranting! LOL i know she'll make up for it.. there are many days too look forward to seeing her.. :) ayt mommie eshie weshie?? LOL hahahhaha

Then I saw Princess Kookie Monster Tree and we went to Yellow Cab too eat an owning 18" pizza... LOL hahaha.. It's Mel's treat back then LOL haha.. Then we went to the Ice skating rink.. nervous coz I don't have no experience in Ice skating, only in Roller blades W/c is a lot different.. LOL hahaha But to Jade's help she taught me how to skate, she held my hand as if she would not let me fall and hurt my head. Then after a few lessons.. LOL I was able to skate freely and fast.. here's the fun part, I didn't fell.. sometimes ALMOST but I never did hit my butt and head.. :)

Then Mel had a koren friend w/c is skating there too and the korean girl named jean had a friend that was Roy's prospect.. hahaa Mel and Jet told Jane to tell the girl that roy likes her and if he could have a picture with her together.. LOL hahahaha well can't blame roy.. The girl's cute alright hahaha and guess what.. Roy Hit 5 koreans when we where skating hahaha.. LOL I liked the part when our friends tried to approach us in the rink (the other side of the glass w/c spectators can watch the skaters) Roy and the others will attempt to throw ice from the rink.. hahaha silly Roy hahaha LOL

then my fav part is when we played a GOOD gag against other skaters at the rink.. hahaha we (mel,me,roy,jet,joe,jade) will meet at the center of the rink then we will simultaneously point upward pretending we are pointing at something and we are having fun looking at it.. haha spectators watching from the 1st and 2nd floor got caught up to our prank that they tend to look up too and confussingly saw nothing/ of they're looking for what we're pointing at while we are laughing our lungs out to those Dumb assess.. nyahaha..

haha surprisingly we overtimed.. supposed to be we must skate 1 hour only but it turned out that we reached 2 hours so we payed again hahaha.. LOL thanks to Jet.. our pockets our saved.. LOL,, haha then I asked.. "Why is it very happy today?" the princess replied "It's my birthday" I agree really!! hahaha next birthday I wish it will be MORE happier than this one.. hahaha KOOKIES!!!

Hahaha after that.. I hanged out with some of my friends, Pedz, Kr, Kuya JBOB, kuya Rex, Kuya Edama and other artist.. then We drawed and I treated them some NY fries.. ahahaha

LOL then there was kuya Carlo Pablo and others.. andun din si Chie.. Cute chie!! LOL she pinched me again.. my god.. I wish i want to see her but i dont want to.. cause I'll get those pinch rashes again.. LOL hahahaha gawd chie is grounded but I wish she will be back soon.. :(

SUNDAY

we jammed with my band the SUMMER REJECTS haha as expected.. it went good.. lol,, When we played "Ang Ating Araw" by dicta license.. the other enqued bands rushed to our studio's window like "hey who's jamming the song?" - "man the songs cool!" like that.. LOL feeling?? about more than 5 people watched Us play the song.. wow.!! haha so much for an encore. we played it again as our last song and they came again! hahahaha I can't help but say.. WOW

then after the jam.. we ate at KFC just a little walk further from the studio.. Chicken steak is the best,, ahahaha LOL.. then we bid farewell and my day ended happilly.. LOL haha.. im looking forward to our Rehearsal next sunday again hahaha

MONDAY

hahahah noting unussual.. LOL :) our advicer Mr. ferrer found out that I am a master!/GC admin.. LOL ahahaha.. haha he told me how he knew bout it.. hahaha he really understands me and he's supporting me all the way! hahaha finally somebody's listening LOL ahahaha like what've he said "Kanino pa ba magmamana ng kalupitan si Sonar. edi sakin! hahahaha" LOL hahaha.... before I hate him because he doens't understand me but after I told him my status he finally listened.. Now for me.. HE is the best Advicer EVER!! hahaha

LOL.. <-- I'm always using this abreviation (means Laughs Out Loud) Oh well... LOL XP

~sings ang ating araw by dicta license~

Tune of the Moon

2006-01-13T20:00:00.000+08:00

The moon sets high with her glowing aura silencing the whole city with serenity and bliss... The day friday the 13th which is believed as "Badluck Day".. dunno why.. but I do feel lucky this day. Hahahaha OWNAGE!!!

As villagers creep inside their homes hoping no bad omen will come in the midst of Friday the 13th, while they pray their lives for them to be saved.. The moon shines bright with her silencing aura.. gives me more POWER..

enough of the shit.. let's get down to bussiness..

Happy birthday to my ever dearest soave KOOKIE MONSTER TREE MELSKIZ!! LOL she's 17 now you know.. don't mess with her cause she'll mess with you and yeah.. Not all that looks like an angel IS an ANGEL, she can beat you up like hell cause she's so cool and yeah.. She'll treat you like shit and you'll feel early death when you mess with her.. and if she's not enough.. We and my Buddy JETSKI will beat you up and send you straight to the underworld... So don't bother to run if she gets angry... hehehe...

Hmm tomorrow I'll be treating my GC guys for some good day in the arcade, lol then we'll eat food and have fun! wohhooo.. very very xcited indeed.. ahahahaha

So you reading my blog. Come to mega tomorrow.. then I'll treat you some Chicken steak.. and bring a gift too.. :)

happy birthday mel.. wish you the best.

fuckin' fifteen... weeeeeee!! :D

2006-01-11T20:42:00.000+08:00

oww hell im fifteen!! wahooo!! ahahaha.. aherm..

my fifteenth day started when i woke up 5:30 and did what regular students would do.. my classmates greeted me happy birthday. and i was tired saying thank you all the way.. but hell... it's once a year.. so saying thank you many times wouldn't hurt even if just for a day ayt??

woo.. the time was 3:00 in the afternoon, our COCC training started again.. and for the welcome.. we got to jog 20 laps round our campus' quadrangle.. dammit.. my feet doesn't hurt BUT my apendix wasm, it stings.. then i felt my lungs burn and my heart.. oh crap.. imma gonna die??.. darn, then we got to push up a welcoming 100 days w/o rests..

my arms can't take it anymore so I chose to duck walk our quadrangle 5 times.. but it turned out that i became exhausted and tired AND I haven't reached the half of my first lap!! whatta body I got... maybe it's just because I didn't had that xtreme xcercise for some long time.. ahaha..

I got home.. after the training I was so tired that i want to sleep the day.. whhatta birthday gift.. 5 laps of duck walk and 100 push ups.. 15 jumping jacks.. good ne?

My aunt was waiting for me.. then we headed forward to Crossings supermarket near our street at the highway here.. she buyed pizza and some food while I ventured down to National bookstore w/c was just at the same building as Crossing..

I got some things for my project.. LOL and a good Ink pen to ink my artworks.. hahahaha then the scanning begins..

thanks to all who greeted me.. :D more POWER to alll.. rak en rowl..

hapy beerday to me..

what a boring newyears day..

2006-01-01T14:12:00.000+08:00

well.. seems to me that this day's nothing but... boooring...

I just woke up, lol and it is very very boring,, nothing to do good. but still it's new year. and yeah.. my birthday's coming up. lol turning 15.. hayy as if anyone cares.. hmm.. classes are already resuming tomorrow "uhh our school only to be exact" how time passes by so quickly. seems like yesterday's 1991.. bringing back the good o'l days.

so hot here in our house.. LOL cold december nights are over.. let's welcome summer dudes.. ahaha it's time for the REJECTS to rise.. nothing to do recently ahaha... well, atleast I must get ready for my school.

and oh yeah.. my new years resolution! aahahaha LOL:

1. Stop starving my self, cause lately I'm saving all my baon for school to attend our weekly GC EBs, and I'm getting thiner, and thiner, and thiner.. everyday..

2. Start eating like a big meanie greedy bum! eat and eat and eat.. sleep, watch TV and stuff.. bad me..

3. Go to church every sundays, cause lately i've been very lazy going to church, that's why maybe God has stopped answering my prayers. sorry God... :(

4. Study well and get serious. If I want to have a good future, i MUST DO that..

5. Keep practicing my drawing skills, cause lately I'm finding out that I'm improving my skills when it comes to arts.. Yeah boi!

6. Take care of my voice, you see, I'm the lead vocals of our band, so If i want to improve.. sing and sing and sing my lungs out! then drink a warm glass of water.

7. lessen drinking cold water.. XD

8. Stop complaining about the problems of life.. stop being angst and stuff.. LOL i want to live life to the fullest and by doing such shit wastes my time.

9. Have a positive outlook towards life, I'll start reading books bout happiness and stuff.. LOL if im continuing my depressive attitude.. I'll turn up being a psycho..

10. spend my money wisely, cause i've been spending it too much..

11. be strong for my friends..

12. Lessen my complains bout love and such..

13. stop thinking bout love matters, cause it wastes my time and it distracts me while living my single life.. ><

14. stop searching for, just wait for my dream girl to come.. there are 999,999,999,999, trillion women in this country. ill just sit here and watch some of them come.. lol

15. stop lying and stuff..

16. be a good person as always..

17. be tough, be strong.. be powerful!! hmwahahah!!

18. stop acting like shit..

19. update my blog always..

20. do my newyears resolution..

that's all I can say.. so my entry ends up here..

hmm i want to play DotA.. LOL see ya folks.. :D :D :D

Turn on tha Radio, Na Fuck it! turn it off!

2005-12-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

Sadness is taking place again... when will it ever stop? when will it end? good thing im not turning suicidal.. LOL the sentence doesn't make sense at all.. and once again..

I went to megamall yesterday, I bought an awesome RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE t-shirt for the cost of 335 pesos. It's Cool, Cheap, and ORIGINAL.. original top 40 apparel.. :D and it ROCKS DUDE!! HAHAHA!! and coz im too excited to wear the t-shirt, i rushed down to the restroom and changed my clothes.. it fits well and i really really liked my t-shirt! yeah!! aherm.. anyways, then I headed straight down to TZ w/c is a short walk from the Top 40 stall.. I saw some GC friends playing DM, I wanted to play so I got my card and I reloaded it from the counter. Then I saw Noeru, Mau, Jade, and Mel & Jet.

And to think that those were on a date , so I didn't came near to them that day, but I came by to say Hi! then Mau secretly placed an apple flavored condom in my pocket.. what a wierdo. then says "Use it well" O_o

Seeing Mel happy with jet makes me happy too. I'll admit that I loved the girl and I only wished nothing but her happiness. I recalled my happy memories with her and to me those memories are treasured and will be always in me. I feel contented to the thought that we became the closest of friends and that I loved her much. But it is still all down to friends. I

all I can do now is Smile, and see my friends come and go while I sit here and do watch them live their lives, as I watch them go on with their own knowing that I am always by their side.. each and every one of them became a big part of my life, some serves as parents, some as siblings and some as relatives, and to the thought that I will be leaving them soon makes me real sad, but for my future I must go and study, then I'll be back with A bang...

hahahaha I'll just laugh at the mistakes I once committed, the stupidities that I once did, the dumb person that I was. And It's all down to starting again. New life, new lifestyle, new me. Advanced Happy New year guys.. :)

though I know no one's reading this.. man my writing and GRAMMAR sucks bigtime..

Fuck The Government..

2005-12-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

Haven't you wonder why families suffer even though it's christmas? ahaha.. I see children sleeping in boxes, or in carts rather. Some curl up in one warm blanket, while others uses none and suffer the cold December night.

Fucking economical prizes. Instead of having a nice noche buenna, thus turns into LECHE BUENNA fuck. Wonder how street people celebrate christmas? Dying,, Ne?? You go to A mall with a budget of 50Pesos and you'll get a decent meal and a nice day at the arcade. You can even buy some snacks down the local 24 hour store. Then you could spend 4.00 pesos for a nice economical jeepney ride and if you are too vain, you can ride the local FX taxi for 10.pesos minimum. Compare that to now. You bring 100pesos at the mall and you'll buy a NOT SO SATISFYING NAKAKABITIN meal for around 80 pesos. Then you'll have a 20 pesos saved for the fare. Sad.. but true.. i wish It will be back to normal nowadays.. but nah.. it's impossible. with our economical crisis now..

And all thanks to our good ol government. w/c Promises a good life to each and every one in the country, while the money instead goes to their own pockets, then into the pockets or the pussy's of their BItches which they Fuck all night long. Spending the people's money for their own pleasure rather than helping those in need. Why would just the world get rid of those numbfucks..

All hail the power dons who become angels whilst in the campaign period! then after the campaign and the election starts the fucking whore hounds turns their back from the people and shows their dark backside w/c they forgot to wash and some shit are still dangling from the asshole.. Then they sit at the seat of luxury and shit their way up to pleasure. With sex, money and POWER.. with their bitches to FUCK ALONG..

And now they're telling the people. "We are campaigning our asses off against poverty and graft and corruption!" but instead of campaigning their dicks off why would they just spend the money to help other people!? I mean, their campaign doesn't work out cause their complain just get rejected and rejected BIG TIME! But I salute the asswipes cause they're trying their best for the country to stop corruption! goodluck dickheads! i salute all of you along the way! FUCK THE GOVERNMENT!

And that's why, I dont feel like it is christmas.. :D

"They rally round the family, WIth pockets full of shells" - Bulls on parade by Rage Against The Machine.

Kata Tsubasa no Tenshi

2005-12-25T12:25:00.000+08:00

hehe.. merry xmas world! and merry xmas GC (Gamer Clan)

haha.. well.. as usuall days, and i don't really feel like it's Christmas and stuff! seems to be ordinary days as well. Just a couple of sandwiches around the table, with fruits and vegie viands with spaghetti and stuff, but it doesn't complete my day though.

I woke up around 11:30am, then i suddenly realized I am late for the Christmas mas.. and so.. I fell back to sleep. But it seems my body had enough sleep so I got up and washed my face and did a little tootbrush thingy.. and ate my Breakfast/Lunch meal. Then I turned on my laptop and here I am now writing my damn useless blog. ><

It's funny that every time I decided to tell the girl I wanted to court her. (manligaw) The girl is Taken or there's somebody courting her and they seem to get along well with each other, w/c leaves me no chances of being with that girl. you understand ne?? LOL hahaha,,

Well there is this girl I like, we talked on the phone recently, then one day Sonar the Sorrowful decided to ask the girl if he can court the girl, but to his surprise, the girl was being courted by the other guy, then Sonar sees that they are getting along w/ each other... and so his hope fell and went down the drain... into the cesspool.. crap.

So it leaves me thinking that I really suck when it comes to this things OR I'm not in luck rather when it comes to Love and Love and Love alone.. Oh crap. I need a love councilor!.. woah shit.. this is solid OA.. well back to topic? was what it!? oh..

And yeah, so I decided that I will concentrate on other things rather than concentrating on this fuckin love facts. Cause I can't concentrate with my life when I worry bout my lovelife, hoping my romantic aspiration meter will increase! but it seems that I really do suck at this matters.

Nuff said. Nah, there are aroun 999,999,999,999,999, women around the world and I'm not worrying that I would not find another girl. Hah! too bad for me for this days though..

but besides this Shit, I greet each and every one of you.. MERRY CHRISTMAS!! to all..

sisikat nang muli ang ating araw

2005-12-11T14:44:00.000+08:00

Sisikat nang muli ang ating araw
Sa nayong may himig ng hanging hinipan ng Banal
Tulad ng awit na pumipiglas sa kahon ng kundiman

Madalas ay reklamo lang ang bukambibig
At 'di makita ang sakit na iyong pasan

Mas matalas ang dila kung mayroong galaw ng bisig
Paliparin ang malayang isip

Dinggin mo ang tawag ng lupang pinagmumulan
Ng kayamanang 'di mo rin pala natitikman

Kelan malilinis ang bahid ng dumi
Hindi malaman, pero pag-asa ay inaasam

Isa na namang awit na tutuhog sa marurupok na pusong lanta
Lanta sa diwa at pag-asa ng umaga

Bukas-loob silipin ang sarili
Balat, mukha, mata, dinggin ang huni

Pagkalipas ng ilang taon
Unti-unting aahon

Ang lipi ng lupa na napako sa kahapon
Walang pamagat alay kong alamat

'Di makakahon damdaming naisulat
'Di mo ba naririnig ang tinig ng lahat

Sabay-sabay lumiliyab, sisikat nang muli

- Ang ating araw by Dicta License

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2005-12-10T01:46:00.000+08:00

i can't pretend that im happy though hatred consumes my inner soul...
i can't pretend that im not affected though i am...

it kills me.. the pain..

when will it ever end?

....

2005-12-08T16:43:00.000+08:00

please give me more minutes to bury the past..

and start again..

in 5,4,3,2,1.... anew

2005-12-07T21:43:00.000+08:00

starting from this moment, im wiping all of those crapola memories out of my mind.

you see i must move on, now that i realized that i can and i must. im doing it. although i know i cant do i w/o her. but i stood up and left those tears behind. i cant just sit forever, and see them being happy while i suffer here.

i realized that it's time to put an end to all this shit. im starting again. and im promising not to do STUPID things again..

my heart has wounds. and now it healed, but it turned into stone. into cold ice. the flame that lights it up weaken. as pain and sufferring engulfed it. LOVE was erased completely from my vocabulary. what is love? i don't anything bout it.. i know it's deep crap. i've been hurt many times, i've been rejected many times. the girl I loved had someone. and that someone loved the girl. Many times i wished i was the guy, many times i wished i had her. but it was just no use.

Im angry, im depressed, im jelous, im mad.

Iwon't love anymore you hear?!!! if you find this post SHIT then call it SHIT! if you fin this entry CRAP! hell YOU CARE FUCK! to anyone reading this and you find this one BULLSHIT! SO BE IT BULLSHIT!!

you don't care. and you wont understand. im starting my life again. i wont love anybody. I WILL LOVE MY SELF AND MYSELF ALONE...

melancholy. come to me..

wapak III

2005-11-16T13:49:00.000+08:00

field trip na namin bukas

shet gus2 kong mag DOTA

tadum dadum dadumm.. ratatatatat!!

2005-11-15T16:50:00.000+08:00

I'm happy now because of this age, i'm starting to realize the realities of life, for every conflict and every pain and suffering. for every happiness and joy that will come, for every depression and stress.. For every heart break..

Realizing that life is not just all work and play, not every minute you're happy, what comes around goes around. Being happy can be eaten by great pain and agony. You see, pain and agony are linked to.. DEATH

being happy does affect us, but the sadness deals the damage, that leads to suicidal cases.. right? lucky for those who can overcome the fear and sadness.. too bad for those who choose to die and to end their life quickly because of some stupid instances... goddamn weaklings............

Realizing that the earth is round, not always you are at the top. there are instances that you'll fall and MUST fall.. and after every fall, there's the instance that you need to stand up, face the problem, face the demon that hunts the deepest inside of you, aiming for you're strong but vulnerable heart, bringing great damage, killing you softly with the greates fears you've ever imagined.. and for those who has weak hearts.. it thus leads to death.. suicide. ironic.

The demon aims for those people who does not have the strenght to live and fight for themselves besides the bad consequences, the problems and the the depressions that attacks the ever vulnerable heart. The demon attacks almost all of us.. let's just face it, each and every one of us has their own fears and problems, w/c is a living timebomb that gives us a blast.. (the sentence has no sense at all XD)

seriously speaking, the person with a strong heart and faith to God has the power to control and fight, even though attacked by the diablo, he fights with all his might, with the help of God. Even thought damaged, he recovers with the damage. and thus healing himself, making him every stronger every time he falls.. every time he fails, every time he is attacked..

I was deeply attacked by that demon, he tried to destroy me, he attacked my weakest point, he tried to separate my mom and dad, and he gave us great suffering.. my mom had no job and we had to find a way out of the dark and live.. There are many times i tried to give up, i lost hope, i lost all the happiness.. But i never gave up.. i won't, i musn't.. i am not weak..

and here was I blaming God for the failures.. but i was indeedly wrong.. you see. another job of the putrid demon is to lead us astray to GOD.. so that we will be angry if there are conflicts and thus we BLAME GOD for the goddamn shit!

you see.. "tinutukso tayo ng DEMONYO" we can't avoid it.. but we can FIGHT IT...

iba ung pagsubok ng panginoon sa tukso ng demonyo... God helps us in a good way, to make us go back to his grasp and be consoled. To be in his way and to be in his path. But the demon destroys, and thus breaking us apart. and our faith towards GOD

but there is something i want to thank that putrid demon.. Because of all those things he has done to me, i learned to fight. i used it against the demon.. but i know the demon is imortal. and while we live. the demon is there to attack.. but i am ready.. i am not afraid.

And with every wound i have got, every pain i felt, every sadness and suffering.. it will heal.. but it will not END... because it will only end if you are DEAD.. in this world there are things that are permanent and here to stay... Happiness and sadness..

"nag papasalamat lang ako at maaga akong namulat sa ganito..maaga akong namulat sa katotohanan na hindi lagi masaya at masagana.." and with every step i take I am armed.. ready to take on the challenges.. and now.. im not afraid. with the help of my friends.. i am invinsible.. and with the help of my love one..

I am Infinite..

do punk!!! let's do the first day PUNK!!

2005-11-11T22:25:00.000+08:00

darn.. exams are coming.. so as our school's "educational tour"

then distribution of cards on monday! oh crap!! whatdo i do?? baka makita nila grades ko.. wah.. >.< anyways these days i've been fighting stress and problems.. school problems.. together with my self made me suffer and made me give up.. but still i stood here standing... I can't give up, i musn't..

school works.. crap man! these school works makes me crazy all the time! arghh and that goddamn sonofabitchin T.L.E project of ours.. the whole week i've spent my money that i always save for every saturdays with my GC peeps! damn!! its all gone.. RUINED!!

shit.. now im researching for our Chem. project.. what is gelatin?? shit... what kind of project is that!!

whatamay saying this.. maybe it's just because i really am in great school pressure.. sorry guys..

hmm taco bells

superkamekamehadokenshinpoushoryouken

2005-11-01T12:07:00.000+08:00

lately kumakapal na ang mukha ko.. and yeah i learned a really valueble lesson..

stop assuming, think of the present and not of the past.. worry about the future.. nah i don't know.. may na offend din ako sa mga pinagpopopost ko.. and yeah.. I'm really really sorry, damn wala na ata akong mukhang maihaharap seo..

arghh now i'm starting my drama sessions again.. siguro kaya lang ako nagkakaganito kasi un talaga ang nararamdaman ko para sayo.. at di ko lang talaga matanggap na umiibig nanaman ako... hahahaha sorry talaga sorry... :'(

OH SHIT NAGDRADRAMA NANAMAN AKO!! AHH TIGIL NA TIGIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways.. naghahanap na ako ng microsoft frontpage para makagawa na ako ng matinong blog layout.. so that i can start Devil Hunter's Office Alpha version. FUCK!!! WHAT KINDA NAME IS DAT?????

damn

2005-09-08T15:18:00.000+08:00

damn..

nothing,,, just sleepy

tomorrow's distribution of cards at school..

expecting low grades..

fuck

there's no place for me in heaven

2005-08-27T10:21:00.000+08:00

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Moderate

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

take the fucking test

St. Anger.. Round my neck.

2005-08-26T19:04:00.000+08:00

tokwa.. bwisit na buhay.. hmpp.. tama nga sila.. madaming putang inang plastic sa mundo.. madaming mga hampas lupa na pakikisamahan mo ng maayos tapos sasabihan kang walang kwenta, walang pakealam, walang ka latoy latoy, walang utak, bobo, tanga, inutil, tarantado, hampas lupa, peste, madumi, mabaho, pangit, abnormal, mongoloid, autistic, gago, sira ulo, may sanib, walang kwentang kaibigan.. putang ina.. PUTANG INA!!

arghh.. wala na talaga akong lugar sa mundo, kung wala ang GC wala na akong ibang kalipunan ng mga kaibigan, mga kaibigang totoo, mga kaibigang hindi ka iiwan, higit sa lahat, mga kaibigang tanggap ako bilang ako, mga kaibigang maasahan at may malasakit...

putang ina.. pati ba naman teacher namin.. isa pa un.. nako..

ganito kasi un..

may reporting kami sa AP, ginawa ko lahat, nagreport ako ng buong puso, kahit hindi ko part ung report eh tinanggap ko.. nag report ako ng maayos, nagbasa ako, nagresearch ako para lang may maireport na maayos sa kanila.. at ano ang makukuha ko?? wala daw kaming kwenta, ang may effort lang daw dun eh ung leader namin.. putang ina naman!! ako?? wala ba akong parte dun? nasabihan pa ako na walang kwenta.. di prepared!! anak ng puta!! nagpakahirap ako para sa wala?? tang ina!! mga hayop pala sila eh!! mga plastic!! masunog sana kayo sa impyerno mga hayop kayo.. tang ina.. TANG INA!!

at ngayon.. galit ang teacher ko sakin.. miski ako galit din sa kanya.. pwe! mga traydor.. balimbing, mga walang utang na loob, pakikisamahan mo ng maayos tapos gagaguhin ka?? putang ina naman!! teacher ko pa?! ang masakit pa nun.. teacher ko pa ang nagsabi na ang pangit ng report namin! tapos ako pa ang lumalabas ng masama?? nagdadaldalan daw mga classmates ko! hayup na buhay!! eh sya nga ung nagpapasimula ng daldalan imbes na ako ang tulungan o kahit makinig manlang sana?? tapos ganun makukuha ko?? ohh come on.. tang ina sila.. tang ina.. pag ako napuno.. SEE ME IN HELL ASSHOLES!!

hahah.. hanga naman ako sa kanila.. matapos ng mga ginawang kabutihan o pagpapakitang loob sa kanila.. manggaganun sila?? tangina.. tangina talaga putang ina kayong lahat mga hayop!! pardon me.. aherm.. mga walang utang na loob.. hah! mga hampas lupa.. mga walang kwenta.. manlalait.. mga fault finders.. puta sana tignan muna nila sarili nila bago sila manghusga!! sawang sawa na ako... sawang sawa..

sawang sawa na akong magpatawad.. magpakumbaba.. wag mamansin at mag bingi bingihan nalaman sa mga panlalait at mga ka plastikan na naririnig ko.. hah! hayup sila.. hayup sila.. pag may kaylangan lalapit, pag wala na ipapakita na ang kanilang mga masasamang mga ugali.. turning their ugly backs on me.. if i had a gun i'd kill them one by one!! fuck..

lagi nalang akong nagpapatawad sa bawat kasalanan nila sakin, kahit hindi ako ang may kasalanan ako ang nagpapakumbaba! ako ang bumababa at nilulunok ko pride ko para lang mag sorry!! hah! sawang sawa na ako!! sawang sawa na ako sakanila!! dapat lumipat na ako ng school nun.. dapat sana!! kahit public school okay lang!! ilayo nyo lang ako sa mga hayop na yon!! sa mga tanginang putang inang mga hampas lupa!! tapos sa lahat ng mga pagpapatawad, sa laht ng pagpapakumbaba.. sa lahat ng mga kabaitang pinilit kong ipakita.. ano igaganti nila!! eh gago pala sila eh!! pacshet..

eto pang isa,, hahahaha.. kami ang makikita kami ang sisisihin kami ang laging may kasalanan.. tangina hindi ako kumakanta ha!! lagi naman ganun eh.. halos kakapiranggot lang ang mga tunay na kaibigan don.. mga kaibigang laging andyan.. mga walang kaplastikan sa katawan.. tapos ang IBA nagbabanal banalan nag babait baitan demonyita naman!! hah.. pa worship worship ka pa..ang pangit naman ng ugali mo.. tang ina.. tang ina talaga!! tapos ang magiging sitwasyon.. ako lalabas na masama no?? hahah sarap pag sasasapakin sa mukha ang mga kupal!! pag nagsalita ako laban sa kanila! babaliwalain ako!! sisipain ako na parang pusa na walang kalaban laban! na hindi kayang ipagtanggol ang sarili!! hah.. masahol pa sila sa mga hayop.. masahol pa sa mga demonyong gumagala sa impyerno.. masahol pa kay satanas.. ano gusto nyo ng sukdulan?? lumapit kayo at ilalabas ko lahat ng baho nyo!! tangina!!

nako tapos kanina?? pinagduck walk kami ng mga officer namin sa COCC.. haha kasalanan namin?? ung mga rifle pinaglaruan ng mga classmates kong magagaling! tapos ako ang nasisi.. kami ang nasisi!! kaming mga COCC na walang kaalam alam!! (duck walk.. nakabend ung knees mo habang naglalakad tpos may rifle sa balikat..) 5 laps pa!! naka tatlo nga ako eh.. tapos eto pa!! sya pa ung may ganang magalit!! hanga naman ako sa kanya.. ang galing mo noh?? antalino mo?? ganda mo! bat di ka maglason ng mamatay ka na at magharap tayo sa impyerno ha??

hindi ko pagsisisihan ang mga sinabi ko.. hindi ko babawiin tong mga pinagsasasabi ko.. patawarin ako ng Dyos.. pero sawa na talaga ako.. ayoko na talaga.. kung maaring pumatay uunahin ko sila!! they declared war against me.. then suffer the consequences.. sana ang galit na nandito hindi mawala.. para pag maypagkakataon gaganti nlng ako ng bigla.. puta.. wala akong pakialam kahit na maging masama!! hah.. ginawa nila akong masama.. sila ang maykasalanan kung bakit ako naging ganito?? akala nyo mabait ako sa mga katulad nila?? hhahahaha nangdahil sa mga pinagdaanan kong impyerno.. dahil sa dinanas kong mga panlalait.. mga pangaapi. mga pangbabalewala.. umaasa pa sila na babalik ang dating ako?? ako na mabait at mapagpakumbaba?? aha.. akala lang nila yon!!

simula ngayon ayoko na!! wala na akong pakialam kung makasakit ako ng iba!! wala na akong pakialam lalong lalo na sa mga walang pakialam na mga tao!! mas gusto ko pang sumama sa mga mangmang na totoo kung makisama, kaysa sa mga matatalino na akala mo hari at reyna na namumuno na akala mo bugaw at nag puputa... hahahaha.. pag nakita ko silang masunog sa impyerno kasama ako... tatawanan ko sila.. hahahaha.. sama sama kaming masusunog sa malalagim na apoy ng impyerno.. di ko sila mapapatawad.. hinding hindi..

hindi ko na babawiin ang mga sinabi ko.. kahit ano pang i dahilan nila, kahit ano pang mga kamalian ko ang ipamukha nila sakin.. wala akong pakialam.. isa lang masasabi ko... MAGKITA KITA TAYO SA IMPYERNO MGA PUTANG INA KAYO!!!

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aherm.. sa mag bumabasa nito.. may mga ilang mga kaibigan ako na nais pasalamatan.. The GC folks awt der yemen \m/!! yung mga iba kong classmates na totoo parin.. Arjay, John, Miguel, Minerva, Nikki and the others.. salamat talaga..

saka kay ano... ahh ewan.. pagpasensyahan nyo na PO ako.. naglalabas lang ng sama ng loob..

"bastusan na.. "

- Kjwan

a catch

2005-08-25T21:16:00.001+08:00

and yeah,,

im reconsidering of changing my blog.. and currently asking help for a blog template.. blogger has avery complicated HTML language.. nice.. but complicated..

shit, who can teach me how to make a blog layout!!?!?!

a catch

2005-08-25T21:16:00.000+08:00

and yeah,,

im reconsidering of changing my blog.. and currently asking help for a blog template.. blogger has avery complicated HTML language.. nice.. but complicated..

shit

Like the wind.. like a shadow.. escape!!

2005-08-25T20:29:00.000+08:00

Escape!!

oh yes.. hahaha sneaked out from my parents and into megamall!! DM time!! hahaha hadn't a hard time playing DM!! no people are playing dm!! hahaha the DM machine at Synergy is now working well again.. sad to say.. i failed Tamayura Ext. but i had the chance to try Children's Sketchbook Adv.!!! hahahah but sad to say i failed it.. hahhaa i was on the 40% part hehe.. a little more practice.. yeah.. practice..

hmm it's been a while since i updated my blog.. been busy this days XD our linggo ng wika program is coming up this tuesday!! so all of us are cramming up practicing well for the upcoming event.. and it really sucks.. it does.. it ruins my DM schedule now my skills are all rusty again!! shit..

ha! but even though all of this damned things.. im really happy, happy of the thought of her, sad, sad of the things i wanted to do, to do things my way, i hate being a kid, hell.. im a teen-ager,, and life sucks.. for me...

so because of that the rebelious supersonar version 1.5 coke litro emerged.. it grew.. and became san miguel grande.. so hell i care if there's rehersals or whatever... hell i care if they kick me out of the group.. hell i care.. like a care..

nuff said, continuing this discussion will make me depressed and angry again.. don't want to show that, i am not weak, i am bad.. that's why i am great... (doesn't make any sense huh?) darn..

and oh yes!! if i would sieze a chance on sunday.. i might be able to go to megamall and play DM again!! hey mel! think i can finish tamayura ext? nah.. i tried it several times a little while ago.. and i can't reach even on the 50% of the song.. no NY fries for me.. oh man..

Currently targeted Songs..

Children's Sketchbook Adv. - Almost 40% of the song.. practice..

Tamayura Ext. - uhhh 30% of the song.. A LOT OF PRACTICE..

Madblast Adv. - Haven't tried it though.. planning to try.. :)

Latest Accomplishments..

Tamayura Adv. Manual Bass - Yemen!! a solid C!!

and here's a bonus!! Our version of DM rankings!!

S - Swabe ( i think it isn't the one, i'll edit this one if i knew the right one XD)
A - Astig
B - Bangis
C - Chamba
D - Durog
E - Epal...

uhh.. there you have it!! i'll try to update my blog frequently.. there are too many happy things i haven't wrote.. to lazy.. Zzzzz.. and shleepy..

Mission Complete: Devil Hunter Rank - C

shit...

2005-08-11T18:46:00.000+08:00

uhhh.. nothing good to post.. nothing good this day.. dunno.. maybe im just intoxicated (because of coffee) XD...

haahah download mode... drinking coffee.. need to finish my chemistry notes...

darn

undergoing photoshop training

2005-08-10T20:59:00.000+08:00

ohh.. new addiction.. nah nothings good this day anyways..

got sick, and when i woke up my auntie's blabbing blabber mouth is doing that freakin routine again... shit.

ohh well.. i woke up around 7:00 pm.. and currently not shleepie.. ghudnesh..

then as usuall.. visiting my friend's blogs, and what the freakin shiverneses!! their blogs our cool compared to mine!! and because of that, i swore to undergo photoshop and template training to change my blog's template..

get ready for the Devil Hunter's Office v.1

wapak II

2005-08-09T19:35:00.000+08:00

when i read my previous post.. all i can say is.. FUCK!

why? yeah right.. it is no use of being emotionall, self pity.. this only shows how weak I am... this shows what the fucking moronic stupidious person I am, yeah!! that is what i am!! hahah.. but know.. i somehow realized.. "medyo nagiging OA ata ako eh.. bout my posts recently.. "maxado kasi akong nagpapapekto sa mga prublema ko.. dati tinatawanan ko lang naman" yeah.. shit..

read my friends posts at GamerClan

tama sila... if it wheren't for me.. there's no Gamer Clan today.. hindi ko din naisip un.. Because some of my friends actually changed their outlook towards life, because of me.. i didn't realized that.. hah.. how stupid I am.. being so emotionall.. showing weaknesses, shit... what a loser I am..

after i've read these posts.. ive realized the things i needed to know...

"It's not what you do that makes you great.... sometimes you just have to be yourself to let others appreciate you for who you are. At kung sinasabi mong hindi ka deserving, bakit? Sino ba gumawa ng forums na 'to? 'di ba ikaw? Sino ba may repsponsable at nag kakilala tayo ng mga members ng Gamer Clan at masaya tayo sa isa't isa? 'di ba ikaw? Malaki ang impact sa akin ng community na 'to sa buhay ko... Before I ever was an admin here on GC, I only lived for myself following self - centered principles and egotistical beliefs. Pero simula nung maatasan mo ako maging admin, I first felt na hindi ako karapatdapat kasi sa totoo, hindi ako marunong makipag-relate sa mga tao. But what the heck, I did the job anyway.

In short, binigyan ako ng GC ng isa pang bahagi ng pagkatao ko na hindi ko akalaing may taglay pala ako nun... In short, Ikaw ang responsable kung bakit nag bago ang buhay ko at ang pagkatao ko..."

-Roy del Sol.. A.K.A Radius of GC

"tama si kuya roy. if it wasnt for you, walang GC ngayon. and dont think of yourself that way. maraming tao ang nag ap-preciate sayo, in what you do. always aim for the best- yun ang pag kakakilala ko syo. and i'm really glad you invited me to this community. somehow, my melancholic insides drained, and i got the chance to meet great poeple- and you :)"

-Esh of GC

"Without you, there will be no GC. And if you have a doubt or committed a mistake, it is just a part of life. Kahit na hirap akong tanggapin na nagkakamali ako, it is a fact na I have to accept. At pasensya kung ang pangit ng inasal ko sa GC forums recently. Di na po mauulit...

Don't worry Sonar. You are a great person. You have just to believe in it."

-Maki A.K.A. Tainted Purple of GC

these guys.. I owe them this, I owe Radius a lot because of the things he teached me about life, I owe mommy Esh coz' if it wheren't for her, i would not be aware of such communities, Lastly I owe Maki a lot, for helping me strenghten myself for those upcoming battles against demons... These guys are so great.. I'm really proud of them to be my friend. Thanks Guys.. you guys mean a lot to me.. :)

and also to Philip, Ric, kuya deevs, tessa, ate mao, mel, monika, dyan, Luna, and recca.. you guys rock.. these are my friends whom i will treasure for the rest of my life... as well as they did to me.. I'm really thankful to be one of your friends.. I owe you my life dudes.. keep on rockin'

and to all the members on GC.. thank you...

and as i read those words.. echoed in my head.. I am great,, i am great,, i am... i am... it ignited the heat inside my body again.. my spirit arised (not aroussed, silly :P).. the urge to live and die for my parents and my friends once again helped me... No more sadness.. no more melancholiness.. Heaven or Hell.. LETS ROCK!!!

"Kung hindi dahil sayo, wala ang GC"

- Deevs of GC

bastusan na!!

2005-08-06T20:58:00.000+08:00

hah!! oh well.. just a night ago (yesterday) we inducted our officers oath and our Aquaintance party!! yemen!! but well.. as usuall "la nanaman akong kasayaw" hahah if it weren't for Ronel (a friend of mine) i wouldn't experience a dance.. shit.. but thanks Ronell.. you rock!! "badtrip nga sya kasi di nya nakasayaw ung crush nya"

hehehe then we and our CAT officers did a very "unusuall trip" hell the stage was on fire because of those dancers who went to the stage.. then WE did the plan.. formed a line.. and ran and slammed all the people inside the gymnatium hah!! it really rocked!! hah!!

And then one of my Fav songs was played.. DALIRI by Kjwan!! oh men!! fucking hell of a shit!! the crowd was wild that the other guys who are really exaggerated created a Mosh pit!! then my friend Ronell urged me to Join!! well at first im nervous, scared that i would be punched right at the face.. but heck i care!! im going to do it!! then with all my might i rushed onto the Moshpit and do my thing!! woo!!! i heard Ouches, and squeals of pain from them but heck i care, then i felt something hit my stomach and my Face, awww.. i also felt that my toe particularly the thumb's nail is bleeding.. but i didnt care.. i cared for the fun!! hahahah too bad the teachers Cant stop us.. coz they'll know what will happen if they ran into the mosh pit and try to stop us.. BAM!! you get the picture..

then those emotionall songs.. hahaha it really made me emotionall to.. envious of seeing everybody with a partner and having a dance with their couple.. well. Ronell found me a partner and we danced "buti na nga lang kakilala ko ung kasayaw ko" but she's too young.. or i mean.. a year younger than me.. >.<

hah.. the program ended around 12 midnight.. well, our house where i reside is just infront of the school, so it wasn't such a bother going home that late.. yemen.. but after those happiness.. the sadness came in again..

when the music is emotional like when the music played was Sponge cola's Crazy for you.. i sat on a dark corner.. and then think of how worse i was.. i mean, there are these two girls i asked for a dance but declined, "masakit daw paa or what" then i was hurt when i saw them dancing with another guy and guess what?? "sila pa ang nagyaya dun sa guy na kasayaw nila.. " nak ng puta... "ang hina ko talaga pag sa babae" it is not that i am torpe.. mahina lang talaga siguro ang Appeal ko, ikaw ba naman ang lapitan ng isang wlang itsura na tulad ko.. di ka ba naman mandiri, nakaka inis tuloy isipin.. they said, It is not the physicall appearance that counts, the attitude of the person is what counts.. shit,, i dont believe in such shit. everybody wants aperfect partner,, ung maganda, ung gwapo, ung mayaman.. dibale nang mayabang o malandi, basta ba maganda ang panlabas na kaaunyuan.. how Ironic.. then here am I thinking, "pano kaya kung magtapat ako sakanya??" will she ever accept me for who i am and not for what i am?? will he accept me if im this dorky piece of shit luking guy?? hah..

Nuff said.. y do i have to be like this.. ye right i thought.. then that night.. How i wish.. how i wish that she was the one I had that night.. how i wish that we were together.. dancing in the moonlight, with our hands together..

" Sa panaginip lang pala kita maisasayaw"

- Ang huling elbimbo by Eraserheads..

ahh!!

2005-08-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

ahhh who cares... those demonic guys, pickin on me again, teasing me... even challenged me into a fist fight, hoping i would not fight, well i guess i didn't, thats how i respect them even though of all the times, cause they know i wont fight back OR cause they knew i CAN'T fight back.. bullshits.. i wish i had the guts...

im tired.. im tired of being kind, im tired of being MR NICE GUY, im tired of forgiving and taking apologies... im tired of their fucking voice... they must be eradicated from this world... but something struck me..

i started a conversation with Arjay, one of my classmates.. and asked.. "pag inaasar pag pag pinag kakaisahan ka ba nila okay lang seo?" he replied "oo, natutuwa pa nga ako eh", and why is that?? then he said to me those words that maked me feel better... "pag inaasar ka nila, hayaan mo lang, matuwa ka, dahil pinagpapala ka ng dyos" well he's dreaming to become a Pastor someday.. but those words.. could it really be true?? could it?? is he serious?? im starting to like that new kid.. a transfery, a start of a really good friendship...

but still, im a devil hunter.. one last burst of anger.. ill confront them to oblivion.. as they.. are the devils.. challenging me into a fist fight because he got fed up.. HELL!!! when did i get fed up with them? when did i fought them?? i always let them be!! fuck!! let them tease and embarass me infront of the whole class!! looking like a total MORON!!! fuck!!!

"Umangas ka na Sonar!!" said the gorilla shithead.. "anong kupal ha?? ano ba gus2 mo??" said the walking kite... what am i gonna do?? mow their lawns or lick their feet while they are laughing at me?? i can't have that?? those bullshits are gonna pay.. i swear.. they made me like this.. they should blame theirselves..

"pinakikisamahan ko sila ng maayos, pero sila?? ano ginagawa nila?? ano ginagawa nila sakin? tatawag tawagin akong kaibigan pag maykailangan sila? habang pag wala na at nakatalikod na ako.. dun na sila umaatake... sisiraan ako.. lalaitin ako.. kaya ako pinagtatawanan.. PUTANG INA!!..., magbabayad sila.. pwe!! mga salot sila, kasalanan nila ito... ngayon, humanda sila na matikman kung ano ang ginawa nila sakin.. magsisisi sila na ginawa nila akong ganito.. isang isa nalang..."

"being good can be beneficial, but it can cause your early defeat"

...

2005-08-01T23:05:00.000+08:00

no one would understand me, no one..

no one would like me, no one..

no one would love me, no one..

"I Need A miracle and not someones charity, one drop of blood from her and my heart's in ecstacy, the high that is spending me is most likely ending me, i need a miracle and not someones charity"

- Silent Hill 3 Ost [I want Love]

who cares anyway???

2005-08-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

kill, reap, tear....

since I studied, really liked having friends, but some, some people fucks... i really don't know, why... do i don't deserve happiness? maybe not, im a sinner... and i know.. GOD hates me.. but for some other reason, i cant hate him..

nah, maybe im just over reacting.. but heck!! you'll never understand me, no one else, hurting peoples feelings, making them feel down, causing their sadness!! that may lead to anger and even hate, once i was a cheerful guy, but of all those guys who hell cares bout me, discriminating me, embarassing me infront of the class, bullying me cause they know i won't fight back, that i can't fight back, damn.. fuck them!! and all of those.. all of those things, the product is this.. their the cause of my anger!! my hate!! my wrathful personality!! if it weren't for them!! i would be a better guy, which i wanted to be as me... i hate them I HATE THEM!!

those assholes, those bitches, those whores!! those fucking people who likes picking on people, who likes kicking and steping on them, for the sake of fun,, never cares bout their feelings... they will pay.. they will..

sometimes i fucking wonder.. why is that some people like picking on some guys, some guys who are weak physycally, who's ugly, and sometimes i really wonder.. why is that guys who chose to become silent and not give a damn to those fucking assholes deserves such punishment"taong nananahimik..."... "kung sino pa naman ang walang ginagawang masama sya ang pinagdidiskitahan putangina"...

i don't know really.. i wish all of them.. i mean ALL.. i wish they were DEAD.. so that i could study easily w/o the fear of being embarassed infront of the public.. i wish they were DEAD.. if i would be given a chance.. fucking shit.. i would Kill them for sure.. i will slash their necks.. watch them fall down and bleed then DIE... then i would get their inside, the intestines, the stomachs, the lungs.. and i'd feed it to those wild dogs, to the wolves.. and i will see their body float at the sea... float into oblivion...

what?? you're going to blame me?? huh??!! you're going to tell me im insane?? huh!! your going to tell me im nuts?? you cant blame me.. cause you don't know what it is like to be me.. if you were in my shoes.. if you were in my place.. if you were me... you'll see..

to those people i've been talking bout, you fuckig guys.. you know yourselves.. you know it.. you'll pay.. and i swore vengeance.. i swore vengeance...

( im talking bout my OTHER classmates here in my entry)

to you GUYS if your reading this... t('',)t

o mah gudnes

2005-07-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

wahoo!!

yeyeyeye boi!! hah until now im in the midst of the GC's Grand EB hangover... grabe. it ish bely hapi!! hahaha specially the times when we played DM together with my friends.. hah!!

i woke up round 9 pm.. well said to myself.. early.. but i gotta get up to prepare.. heck this is the most imp day of GC.. and im the admin!! i must really go early hah!!

well then, i took a bath (wait, i took a crap b4 dat), then i dressed up, ate an early luch, brush my teeth, and set of to an early launch towards mega.. rarrr!! hahahah.. like as usuall, i rode a trycicle towards rotonda and then took a jeepney and rode it until i reach St. Francis Church.. then i went in to shangrila where i saw handsome JET playing DM hahahah!! gave him a punch straight punch right at the arm.. hahahaha.. im so bad.. but fuck!! i tried madblast advanced and it was like.. waya!! boom!! *stage failed* shit.. i should practise basic 1st..

then we head of to mega and i headed in clubsynergy.. seeing no one.. i played DM and finished ukifune, madblast basic and tamayura adv. ahahahahah

then i went to TZ andsaw my neighbor playing DM so i joined and watched him play.. then i saw dyan.. hahaha, then dyan decided to call mel, she was like panicking cause she cant hear some thing or what ever is that she cant hear i only know that she's calling mel.. then i saw mel walking towards us... O_o then who's dyan calling?? oh well..

then we played DM at Club synergy and we saw kuya deevs who wore shades and a cap.. heheheh ahh the master *bows down*..

hahaha then DM marathon again!! rarr!! then i saw tessa and mr zaerone masturbating the head of the stuff toy patrick the starfish of Spongerbob square pants,,, hahaha.. i burst into laughter when i saw that hideous act.. wdf!!!?? and i saw kuya deevs reaction.. the same as mine,, but for dyan and mel.. they where like.. OMG!!! remembering that act of pervertism within a human and a stuff toy makes me feel like...wahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahhahahahahahhahahaha!!! for short,, i burst into laughter.. hahahah.. XD

then went to shang and played DM.. mel and kuya deybs played session mode hahaha.. then dyan the me!! yay!! it ish bely happy pleying DM in shang!! hahah sulit ang 25 pesos.. hahahah!!

den we went back to mega to play a little more of DM and took some of picture picture bla bla bla.. hahaha and saw mommy esh, ace, met izumi ryu, and the other GC dudes like Gazer and tessa and ate mao!! haahah...

and then as usuall.. hahaha we talked bout unussual stuff then we went again to club synergy to play a little more again hahaha!! then mel and dyan went home while i was playing then mommy eshie and kuya deybs lend me some tokens!! and mel too!! waw!! im really thankful to you guys.. *bows*

hahaha den another picture picture courtesy of Mommy eshie and Tessa ahahah and a little more of dm.. and the fun doesn't stop!! we met mr mario.. a half korean and a half japanese guy..
at first we thought of him as a snobish guy but it prove us wrong.. he is really kind and really cheerful.. heheheh, silent type.. hmm maybe because he doesn't knew anybody there but when we met him.. hey!! not bad!!

hahah.. but then as ussuall.. i went home around 9 pm receiving a text message fr. my friend.. bout her crush Brian... poor tessa.. she really loved the guy, but didn't loved her back.. i feel sorry for you friend.. it is a part of lyf, and lyf sucks...

yeah.. right.. lyf sucks..

"isang araw lang akong naging maligaya, bukas bukas, mawawala na.."

....

anak ng putang sinaing..

2005-07-28T20:21:00.001+08:00

eto diretsuhan na eto.. putang ina!!! ayoko nang magsaing!! tang ina nyo!! arghhh!!!

rarr!! di ko naman kasalanan un eh!! rarrr!!! tang ina talaga!!! ako sinisisi tatanga tanga daw ako!! marunong ako di ko lang matantya!! putang ina!! tang ina!! tang ina!! ayoko na talaga!! ayoko na!! rarrr!! ag!! punyeta!! punyemas!! putragis!! putang ina putang ina putang ina putang ina putang ina putang ina!!! galit ako!!

galit ako sa mundo!! mga hayop!! mga hampaslupa!! magsaing kayo ng magisa nyo!! wala na akong pakialam!! tang ina nyo!! puta!! puta!! TANG INA TALAGA!!! PUTANG INA !!! AYOKO NA PUNYEMAS!! PUNYETA!!!! TANG NA !!! GAGO!!! MAMATAY NA KAYO!!! MAGSAING NA ANG MAGSASAING!!! LA NA AKONG PAKE!! PUTA!!! ARGHH!!!!!

...

2005-07-26T21:00:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. recently i have been very lonely.. heck..

yeah right i thought.. i've been very lonely for the passed weeks.. friggin heat round here.. makes the surrounding more lonelier.. it supposed to be cold.. *turns on the fan..* there..

hah.. i journey through my days.. well.. seing everybody as well as my friends and my classm8ts.. seing people doing that "PDA" thing..

yeah.. my life sucks... mom hates me.. as well as i hate my clasmates (not all of them)..

teasing me around.. thinking that im enjoying it.. but im not... screw them...
currently listening to Vertical Horizon's song... Everything you want..

its a really good song to be honest.. it reflects my past experience with my previous loved one..
here's the chorus part..

He’s everything you want
He’s everything you need
He’s everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don’t know why

yeah.. she knows i love her.. but she loves him.. so i've got nothing to do with it anymore.. yeah i know it sucks... and it sucks hard.. but it's live man.. so i have no choice.. heck.. but to stop.. and let them love each other w/o me googling around like a total freak...

anyways.. anybody reading this?? pls.. spam my tag board... or call me.. if you know my number of course.. thanks in advance...

argg

2005-07-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

farewell to my friends.. thought i'll leave you all behind..
my time is running and i'm about to lose my mind..

ahh.. everythings so fucked up.. it was our prelims a while ago.. hah and it totaly crushed my brain into tidbits.. damnit.. then here am i thinking whether to go attend the EB tomorrow after our prelims or... stay at home.. fucked up a little more..

it was nice to see people joining my forum.. Gamer Clan.. although we lack gaming news.. we do our best for the forums.. anyways.. hahah at first im not seriously in into those gaming communities.. but when i created gclan.. i realized that i must take it seriously if i want it to grow.. well... where turning 100 members soon.. hahaha only 5 members to go... weeee!! ^_^V i have a problem.. very complicated..

my mom called me from the US and told me she was doing my papers for me to go and live there... well at first i became excited.. but..

then i thought, when i leave the philippines.. how bout gclan?? what about our Dm days.. what about my friends.. i will miss them.. but them?? will they do so too?? *sniff*

makes me so sad to think when i leave, i will really miss my friends specially my Gclan fellows.. hell i will miss them so bad.. then I will adapt to the surroundings there.. but my gaming spirit will never die.. and my love for my friends will light aflame for those cold winter nights of being lonely..

if ever i will migrate there .. i promise to become active in GC although those circumstances.. specially when playing DM.. hahaha it would be a pleasure playing DM there.. whooo..

and i promise.. i will come back soon if ever.. i won't leave you all behind.. and if ever i came back.. i'll be "supersonar US ver" with electronic sound and glowing red eyes... yikes.. what am i a robot?? as you see im not so excited.. hell of course i want to be with my mom after all the years we've been apart.. but stuill im worrying bout my friends..

hahahaha but for now... ill just stay.. play.. enjoy philippine life.. for now T_T

im just a kid.. and life is a nightmare...

im back!! pack ya!! t(",)t

2005-07-20T17:58:00.000+08:00

yemen its gud to be back and to be alayb.. wahaha..

uhh hello again... i was not able to go online for some certain reasons.. and one of those reasons is my laptop broke.. fak the hell.. then we had to go TIPID time, my 100php baon a day became 20php.. i remembered those bargain shouts outside our neighborhood.. "walang sinkwenta, wala ng isandaan, bente nalang bente nalang" i was like.. oh crap..

hahha i missed my OL friends specially those on GC.. and guess what.. i really really miss them!! ahh nakakainis!! my YM does not respond properly and im forced to go OL w/o using YM.. wat a fucker... >.<

@my Ym buddies whos reading this one..

ill be away for a long time OL at YM.. but youll see me on GC anyways.. hahaha ill miss chatting with you..

if you wanna call me and spam our telephone (wat??) or just call me to say hello, heres my number.. 6404885,,, im know here as sonar.. or whatsoever.. ahaha basta ill be missing you!! guys!!! wah!! :(

wadapak??

2005-07-02T20:31:00.000+08:00

ahh!! a very nice today.. hahaha i spend the whole afternoon with my friends.. (deevs, mel, tessa, and the others) hahah it was a very nice DM day (saturday is DM day yay!) to think i will not be able to go and join the fun.. hell i was there!! hahaha i didn't expect..

i woke up early around 6 and goes online.. sat infront of my computer like a total RETARD with bed hair.. and morning glory at my eyes.. and some of left over and dried drool at the side of my mouth..

ewww.. with a yawn, i started thinking what day i will miss today.. shit!! i will stay here at my house being bummed and fucked up thinking ahhhh i wish i had money and i wish i was not grounded!!! god damn life... arghhh what gives??!!

and so my shit came on, i posted at GC forums and told my other friends yesterday that i will not be able to attend or come to the DM day.. sad to think... taco bells.. hey what?? ahhh never mind..

then i came back to sleep around 8 am and when i woke up.. its lunch time.. sugoi!! the food's delicious!! vegetables!! hell i love vegetables!! i really love them!! i drool over them!! i drooolll!!!! ahhrgg!! i was so hungry i ate a whole fuckin super meal!! anyways.. i didn't ate breakfast so that should just explain it...

so depressed that i cannot go.. sat infront of my computer and talked shit while reading some of my friends blogs and journals while thinking bout crap and all of the most depressing things if i will not go... like missing the DM day, missing the most enjoyale days of my life.. but it turned out real wrong...

my cousin lend me money and also teh guitarist of our band! thanks to them my escape plan worked!! hahahaha leading me to serious problems with traffic and hunger... rarrr!! and finaly!! megamol!! my home!! my true home!! (i remembered one of my friend's blog that states about the guy who doesn't leave mega mall and squezes into one of the holes and sleeps and never left mega mall again) passed timezone... nope.. saw no one.. then passed food court...

then all of a sudden... USHER!!! a group of people where meeting at the food court somewhere near the "shrine" haha then i joined them.. then stargazer took out a canned good.. which states "argentina corned beef, chunkie" wadapak???

hahaha then i left them and headed to my room... SYNERGY!!! haha and i saw kuya deevs!! then we headed to tymzone... and i saw a very familliar girl, oh.. its mel, then we played drummania and we where like HELL singin' PPR!!! and such.. hahaha when i see the tekken 5 machine reminds me of someones blog that makes me burst into laughter when i remember or read it...

as usual spend the most days on synergy, saw a few GC friends and we raked and roll all day LONG!! hahha spend the most of the afternoon playing DM and not wasting time... then the snare of club synergy's DM machine BROKE!!! it didn't brake it BROKE!! hahah then we had to put tape all over the snare hahahah very funny... NOT!!!!

then there was a time when a friend of mine (Mel) played and the hi hat screwed up and make a ranting of such wadafakinhellofabitch with those red "MISS" at the screen and thus ended her playing career.. O_o she was so frustrated she looked onto me as if she ish goin to beat mah ash!! like wat shi did tu meh at tikin por!! hell she ish rili rili gud!!!

then i went home around 5:30pm and i turned on my laptop haha and it is good to be home again... NOT again.. hell i mish drummania by that tym my whole playlist at winamp was full of drummania!! then my mom called and we had a little arguement which on "my" part is very complicated.. how can i have a mother which don't trust me?? it makes me fucked up i wanna die early!!!

now enough of this bullshit.. gotta sleep early.. so for now.. good bye i gotta wake up early and attend my COCC form.. so xiao!!!

COCC take my command FORM!!!!

2005-07-01T16:53:00.000+08:00

hahaha first form of our COCC.. or an earlier version of CAT which is performed in the 4th year of HS. COCC is at the 3rd year commanded by the Officers that are former COCC students... so i may have a chance to become an officer when i reach 4th year HS... yeepee!!

hmm haha it was really fun!! i dunno even though i am very nervous >.< we where comanded to shout "BALOT" and "PENOY" at the school quadrangel where all persons in the campus can hear!! hahaha i was laughing like hell when it was my turn but the officers are quite impressed with me.. hey not to brag.. trough all of the students that joined i am the only one who does the right things.. like not to obey the orders when the officers don't say the phrase "take my command" or what...

anyways... it is very fun and it affects my grade in our P.E. class haha..

imagine... a 90% grade at the card.. INSTANT!!

believe in love..

2005-06-30T16:23:00.000+08:00

hahahah.. believe in love?? yeah right.. sad to think...

what do i must believe in?? i'm so depressed i can't think!! good thing my computer is here, rather than my friends... even though it doesn't understands me... it listens to my rants, my complains, my problems, my sufferings...

back to those old depressed days again, i remembered... i used to teach my classmate on how to play a guitar, then i just knew one day, she was better than me all of a sudden.. and me?? i don't know even all the chords.. even the basic notes, a,b,c,g and stuff...man i must really suck...

sometimes i even wonder.. do i deserve those kinds of things?? or do i deserve to have a band, i mean... all of my bandmates are talented.. and me?? i just sing that's all, problem is, the voice sucks too..

hahaha seems ironic, i have no talent!! all of my bandmates, they are the only ones who rock.. damn, they know how to play bass, guitar, drums, me?? i only do is.. sing thats all... tapos pangit pa ung boses ko.. while them?? ang gagaling nila,, ako lang ata ang bano sa kanila eh.. gus2 nila akong paggitarahin kaso di ako marunong.... then plans on having band rehearsals on friday afternoons?? di naman natutuloy kasi laging di available ung bassist..

then those words, believe in love... ha!! believe in what? hell!! love didn't do me anything good beside my parent's... hell i remembered those girls who dumped me... yeah... i was dumped.. is it because i don't look good does it mean i have no right to love and be LOVED by others...

fuck some of my classmates.. playing pranks on me, playing jokes, embarassing me infront of the class.. because of my looks.. hell!! what did i do to be treated like this?? all of them.. utility friends.. calling "FRIEND" because they needed something, like a cool high five... "buti pa ung iba kong classmates" singing that stupid song that has no meaning or such... i was never treated normally as i would at school... that's why i decided to join COCC for me to have just a little authorization at school.. even just a little.. for me to be respected..

then what else will i believe in?? myself?? yeah right.. i can't even shoot a ball at a ring... nor i can't even play billiards.. the funny part?? i can't even shoot darts to a dart board... i can't even sing a song!! i cant even run fast... all i can do is.. sit infront of the computer.. listen to music.. and silence...

nonsense.. just nonsense.. will this suffering ever stop?? can anybody tell me?? anybody??

the taste of defeat

2005-06-29T19:32:00.000+08:00

arghhh retards!! fools!! assholes!! arghhh

its our 2nd time tasting defeat to other schools... yeah right you said it.. WE SUCK!! actually not that suckness.. we didn't had just enough time practicing.. thats all... hey, sorry for all the rants.. just frutrated you know..

why did we lose?? firstly we didn't had much tym, then our costume sucks, third is we missed the introduction due to delay of our other mates in the group, fourth is actually we don't have a cheerleading squad, we where just chosen and then requested to perform

WHY?? becoz our school sucks thats why!!! as in, " di manlang ma sponsoran ang damit namin " hell the school's pride is on our hands back then!! almost all schools here in pasig now knew HOW WE SUCK!!!

the pride of our school

2005-06-29T13:04:00.000+08:00

hayy.. here i am, just got home from school, we where excemted for our class because we needed a full day practice for the cheerdance competition a few moments later... >.< and all of us are very nervous indeed!! it will be the 2nd time we wil join a competition like this again since our first year (i'm currently third year), then our opponents, arghhh it was a great relief when we herd that PCC is backing out, why??

firstly, their cheerleading squad are not fit for amateurs or let's just say na "pang uaap na ang PCC knights" when it comes to cheerdancing, as in they have their own cheerleading squad and it is for the whole school! then us?? just one small class...

well we don't have to waste time on such RUMORS, we can't play relax and not worry about the competition... ALL people of pasig city will watch and see us perform!! ahhh talk bout the pressure guys...

well later on i will go back to school and get ready for the competition..

HELL WISH US LUCK!!!! rarrr!!

i was like arghhh!!!

2005-06-29T12:59:00.000+08:00

school days as usuall..

starting at a very cold morning, with cold water to take a bath with, with cold water for my coffee, cold water for my mouthwash, cold air that joined me through my journey to our school...

well if you knew where i live, i just live exactly INFRONT of our school.. kewl huh, as in if i forgot a project at home, i could simply shout at the gate through our house where it can be heard..

whoooo, very exhausting indeed, hahaha with all those books to bring and notebooks, then we had to bring extra clothes and an extra pair of snickers (shoes) to use at our cheerdance practice, well the competition will be on june 29 2005 at Pasig Sports Arena somewhere here at our place >.<>.<;; hahh, then our teacher came, i was like "thank god your here! amoy tae na, nakakangalay pa tumayo dito!!" ahhh me and my clasm8ts where inside at last, arghh my classmates are the sickest persons on EARTH!!! imagine, two airconditioners running then they go turn on the electric fan!! hell it was not hell it was like your in a Freezer!! my place at the class was near the Airconditioner and near the ceiling fan where the Air meets... darn it was cold... REALLY COLD!!! brrr... currently, i'm posting at my forum, if you would like to join.. then join us!!! http://gclan.servegame.com :) and wish us luck at the competition!!

Pastel Paradise Rapture [PPR]

2005-06-27T21:19:00.000+08:00

wah, assignments!! god damn assignments!! when will it stop!! wahh my assignment is MATH!! geometry!! i hate geometry!! arghhh!! hah *pants* well it is not good to have tantrums about asignments... heehee well i'll just recall my last HAPPY moments with my friends...

THE EB (june 18 2005)

well i walked on as usuall, from my house at pasig to megamall, well it was a usual day, with birds, and dogs, and their shits on the road.. then i entered the mall tadadadum!! thinking to myself (drummania,drummania,drummania,drummania,drummania,drummania,drummania) so i hurreidly walked towards the mall, passed timezone (shit the 5th mix is out of order), oh well got to move on as usuall, then passed food court (well nope nobody was there) so i went off to CLUB SYNERGY!! ohh the name!! i fear of the name!! Synergy!! *bows down* anyways... then i played as usual, the usual playlist.. tentaikansoku, across the nightmare, then my TAMAYURA damn it, i was hoping i could finish it in ADV and then i did!!! holy cow! i did!! whew, that was the happiest day to me at THAT MOMENT ONLY!! grarrr!!! then long came mister recca hanabishi and approached me, then we played tekken 5 at tv games, hell ate Esh was very good at using sakura, i use Kazuya, Steve and law (not to brag) and then That other chinese guy named Wang or something or fei.. it was veryvery fun really!!! i mean, its my first tym beating other friends that i know are much more skilled than me in the first place... after playing this weird feeling occurred...

i felt cold and i was like dizzy and such, long did i knew that i had a case of FEVER what???!!! at a mall!!! at my recreation time!!? hell no way i tought, well as then, other people came, tessa, monika(rinoa), aya, Esh... then monika noticed me and convinced me to take a medicine, well i did!! for god's sake!! why do i have to have fever on that case anyways!!! damn my question was "pwede naman sa bahay bakit dito pa??"

i dunno, maybe its just because i went outside (w/c has a very hot temperature) then suddenly entering a diff. environment... well at that case, i finished mad blast basic and tamayura again (after taking a pill), then i saw a girl placed tokens, so i didn't mind... well as usuall, then i saw the girl, deep inside my toughts (hey i know her and that girl!!) she played PPR and right on time then tentai kansoku was it?? hmm dunno, those two are the only song i remembered played by her.. then this urge came into me.. there's something on that PPR that makes me start a Mosh pit,damn yes!! the gang shouts!! it was like

NANANANANANANA OI!!! NANANANANA OI OI!!!!!!!

then

Moving out! to the mountain skies and trees!!
moving out!
when nobody wants to beat any one
and when obody's bugging me (PPR!!!!!!)

i wanna be where the creatures are free
pastel paradise rapture in fantasy
grab what you can and head for a wild country!!

na na na na na na na na

then the whole song keeps playing in my head!! (take note LSS!!), then its my turn again to play, ha for the 4th tym!! i finished tamayura!! afterwards i felt very sick again... and this time.. much worse that the previous one... and darn!! so i had to say goodbye early, around 7:30 pm

i came back from megamall and lied on my bed without taking my clothes off even my shoes which is full of mud.. well thank goodness i made it back safe, because while i was walking back to the jeepney station, i am NOT FEELING WELL!!! ahhh i was suffering from vertigo or what.. glad to make it alive!!! whewzers!!

then my mom called.. nad told me to rest, then, you know what happened??
"you will not go out anymore, stay there, study, no malling for you kid"
damn.........

wadahel?!!

wah does this mean.. i cant play drummania anymore??

I CANT SING ABOUT MY PPR WAAHHHH!!!!!

Status: currently playing Pastel Paradise Rapture ( for the 20th tym in a row )

it's been a long time

2005-06-10T20:07:00.000+08:00

haha so, its been a long time since i updated my blog.. had been very busy lately with my forum.. Gamer Clan

and so as usuall, class days are coming and vacation days are over.. haha damn it... but anyways, i'm going to megamall tomorrow meeting my friends again, and Gamer Clan's first EB...

hehe so enjoy your night today.. if you want to join Gamer Clan click here

Xcited para bukas

2005-04-15T18:10:00.000+08:00

hahahaha.. excited ako kase mame-meet ko na si Tessa, ate Mao, Arikado and other FC members.. tpos mag lalaro kami ng drummania hehehe katulad ko mahilig din maglaro si Tessa ng ganun, ewan ko lang kay ate Mao,...
nyahahah pero as usual ung tantra na t-shirt nanaman ang susuotin ko... T_T

Percussion Freaks 7th mix

2005-03-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

eto kagagaling lng namin ng glorietta nag laro ng percussion freaks 7th mix grabee ang hihirap ng mga tracks dun tpos included n sa list ung Children's Sketchbook saka Fireball pero wala na ung Sunny day saka Haru~Spring badtrip nga eh.... ang mahal pa timezone kase...

Percussion Freaks 7th mix

2005-03-28T22:23:00.001+08:00

haayy eto okay naman kagagaling namin nung kaibigan ko kay KR ung friend namin tpos nagkayayaan sa Glorietta tpos sa timezone kaya un naubos ang mga pera sa kalalaro ng DDR saka ng Percussion Freaks 7th mix, wooo ang hirap nang extreme mode pala ng Tentaikansoku tpos ang daming bago pero Kasama na sa Listahan ung FireBall saka ung Children's Sketchbook na sa Percussion Freaks 5th mix eh extra at encore stage.... wow.... kaadek nga eh.. wooo tpos bumalik kami sa bahay ni Kr tpos nanood kami ng MTV ng Bump of Chicken sailing day wow graaaabeee.. .Kapagod

Tandadadan!!! Maundy Thursday!!!

2005-03-25T07:02:00.000+08:00

Maundy Thursday... yeah right.. ngaun pinapahirapan si Christ... i remember way back then when i was an Altar Server (sakristan) nakaluhod kami ng halos 30mins sa sahig pero... walang cushion as in batuhan pa nun ung Santa Clara de Montefalco dito sa pasig, kagagawa palang kasi... then pag katapos nun nag prusisyon pa... pero okay lang, parang penitensya un... hindi pa nga pala ako nakakapag kumpisal eh... ilang years na, wow makasalanan na talaga ako wahaha

ei!! pano ba mag lagay ng tag board???

2005-03-22T16:22:00.000+08:00

help naman pls!!!!!! thank you!

yo!!!

2005-03-22T05:39:00.000+08:00

elow!! actually my first post!! well nakita ko ito kay arikado kaya gumaya din ako wahahah...
hahaha btw elow sa inyong lahat newbie palang me...